Dear Parent.

Please read, absorb, and face the truth. If these statements pertain to you, just admit it already and lets move on. I'm tired of the denial. These statements are for both parents, and I had to finally get it out of my system.

PS. These statements were very hard for me to write down. They come from my heart.

It makes me angry that you blame everything on someone else.

It makes me angry you lie about everything.
And ALWAYS have.
Even the small stuff.

It makes me angry that you're starting over like this.

It makes me angry that when I was 15, I couldn't even hang out with friends unless you knew them AND their parents.
But my brother at 15 can ride the bus to Fairhaven and just hang out with his friends.

It makes me angry thinking of the above statement and not knowing who's fault this really is, since I was lied to my whole life.

It makes me angry that I couldn't do such a small thing as go to the mall and hang out with friends.
Even at 18.

It makes me angry I wasn't allowed to attend school dances til Junior year.
Despite the fact I never had a date to go with before.

It makes me angry that you say my 15 year old brother is more mature than I was at his age.
You wouldn't know.
You didn't even know me.

It makes me angry that you talk about me behind my back to other relatives.
How mature is that?

It makes me angry that you hurt me for years and never apologized for it.

It makes me angry you didn't say or do anything about it.

It makes me angry that you both talk crap about the other.

It makes me angry that you take responsibility for a child, but not at the same time.

It makes me angry you put yourself above others.
Including your children.

It makes me angry that you (or you) never noticed I was depressed, or wanted to end my life.
I had to come to you.
After 2 years.

It makes me angry that you never noticed I was struggling with anorexia.
For my whole 7th grade year.

It makes me angry you don't trust me.
And never have.

It makes me angry that I don't know who to be angry with because of the lying.
My whole life.

It makes me angry that I had to miss two GREAT weeks of summer camp because of my grades.
When I worked my ass off, and got C's.
But he does nothing, gets D's, and tells you, "I'll do better next year."

It makes me angry that you weren't happy with eachother, but we had to suffer.

It makes me angry that you're a hypocrite.

It makes me angry not being able to say, "Yeah, we have a great relationship!"

It makes me angry that you deny the truth.
Or anything for that matter.

It makes me angry that you take advantage of people.

It makes me angry to think that my family doesn't trust me or talk to me because of you.

It makes me angry that I've lost some good friends because of your control/needs-to-be-center-of-attention issues.

It makes me angry that you were never there for me.

This is not meant to be a hateful note whatsoever. I just needed to finally let it out and show you I'm not as blind as you thought I was. If any of this pertains to you, please take note and fix it. Don't go calling me, denying it, or blaming the other. I don't want to hear it anymore. Thanks.

Love, Me.